How did I create momentum?

I’d been interested in the effects of meditation for a long time.
I thought it could bring me peace, change my thinking, make me better.
Problem was, there was never enough time. I felt like I couldn’t begin, never mind sustain a daily practice.

I had two young kids who weren’t sleepers. It felt like I was clawing back time just to think straight. My mind was often blurry and reactive. I also told myself this story: I had to do it completely right or not at all (a fantastic excuse that I’ve used time and again to stop doing something I want to do) I desperately wanted the effects of what meditation might bring. I had heard that it trains the mind and creates a gap, the gap between reaction and response. I was becoming an absolutely expert in reacting and I hated it.
I’d finally gotten to the point where it was more painful to do nothing than to do something imperfectly.

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Creating the space for change

I’ve learned something important.
Important things usually seem so obvious after I’ve learned them.
Believing in and practicing this has made a significant difference in how I have changed over the last few years.
We have all the tools inside of us for whatever we need in life.
That’s it.
When someone treats us as
Less than
Incapable
Without
They don’t honor or respect what each and every one of us is capable of.

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